@PhillipLWilcher

I lost my father to dementia on August 20th 2022. He was several months shy of his 100th birthday. He died in my arms at hospital. I was his full-time carer for 12 years. I had lived with him all my life. During his life, I never heard my father speak of anything spiritual, no mention of Heaven, not until his final days. During the last four days of his month-long stay at hospital, I stayed with him in his room 24/7, never leaving his side. I kept a journal, detailing his final hours. Here are my notes from that journal which I used for my eulogy at his funeral: 

His voice is veiled as he asks me to help him to stand up, he wants to go home.

"Help me stand up" he says, "I want to go home. My mother will be wondering where I am!"

Even if I could help him to stand up, he is so physically weak and depleted now, that I think we both would fall.

Late yesterday afternoon, when I was about to leave him for the day, I asked him if he minded that I should go, assuring him as I do every day that I will see him again in the morning.

"If I am here ..." he replies.

"Where else would you be?" I ask him.

"In Heaven!"

How his broken voice it breaks me and so, I arrange with hospital staff for me to stay with him the night. Several hours earlier he had told me that there were people gathering about us in his room. Looking to either side of me, firstly over my left shoulder and then to my right, they who were there not for me but only him were dressed in white.

"Do you recognize any of them?" I ask him.

He raises a boney finger and replies: "Just one!"

I ask him who the person is that he recognises and he tells me that it is himself.

"What age are you?" I ask him.

"I am 15!"

At the time of writing this, I have been by his side a full thirty-four and a half hours.

Inasmuch does his mind meander, I am never not so knowing of what he means.

"Lift me up, I want to go home!" he says over and over: "I want to go home!"

Holding his hand, I tell him that although I cannot lift him up physically, I can at least lift him up toward Spirit, and I place my other hand at where his heart is and say to him: "Home is where your heart is! If you live within the home that is your heart, you will always have Love; you will always know Love: God's Love!"

"I want to go home!"

Massaging his chest gently in a clockwise rotation, because the motion of Life is always forward even after Death, yet without actually lifting my hand from his ever weakening heart, I lean forward and whisper into his ear that he can go.

"Go home! You do not have to stay, just know that I love you!"

"And I love you!"

He is even weaker now but not yet gone, and I do not think that I have ever known of a moment so innocent as this, the lingering of a Life as do the Guardians of Love they prepare His way.

His doctor visits with me. She is concerned for me that I have stayed the night, telling me I need to look after myself.

Squeezing his hand a little tighter in mine I look at her and say: "I Am"

Another day passes during whose time he is bathed twice in his bed, first in the morning and then again at night: Bed Bath Lite. The ritual of cleansing a rite of passage now, water, glycerin, gels and fragrant oils, they do not soil the sheets but soothe his skin, tissue-paper thin.

He breathes in and breathes out ever more purposefully on the exhale, and I copy the sequence of sighs sorrowfully, that none too cold each pant becomes, nothing so irregular, not just yet. I would bet myself he would live another year but for my fear the end is near we both do know it, and I think to myself how stealthily the dusk does creep before the breaking of each new dawn a waking day, how we live to die and die to live reborn.

With his cheek resting softly upon the pillow I lay my head at his side. He places his hand on my head and touches my hair. and I want more than anything for him to keep it there.

As his breathing becomes more shallow I chant: "Everything I am is of you; all my love is yours!" "Everything I am is of you; all my love is yours!" but then to add: "If you take my heart with you when you go, my love will be with you and forever more, because of the love I give to you are you a part, two soles, one heart!"

I dim the light to dull the play of shadows upon his features that I see only myself in him now.

And then, at the eleventh hour of my stay this day he takes his last breath and quietly slips away, into the silent land where there is only Love and Time it has no borders, bound not by night neither lit by day, only Love! Love has sped him away!

(Leslie James Wilcher 16.01.1923 - 20.08.2022)

@siggiwinsor1623

I'm here, my soul is tired to the core, I want to go home. So many lifetimes behind me. I've never fit in here this time. I've begged to go home, nearly died 5 times, things I shouldn't have survived with a short NDE. The voices whispered in my dreams and visions say, not yet, there's more work to be done. What more??? I've sacrificed my life away for others.  Let me go home, please 🙏

@ellie.l6585

Death isn't frightening it's the dying part that is scary. There are some pretty cruel, painful and undignified ways to leave this earth.

@Terri-e8l

Yes, I am an old soul. It all resonates with me. I recently had a brain tumor removed and I am prone to anxiety mostly due to a heightened sense of empathy. I just knew we are all immortal and death is just leaving this world. I was comforted in a way that's inexplicable to verbally explain.  It felt like divine comfort and lack of fear. I was OK with going home or coming back to my earthly home. I've never fit in this world. I am attracted to certain eras, and everything described.  The comfort felt as if angels were holding me with love before the major brain surgery.  My soul is exhausted and I feel this may be my last go around.  I'm  51 and felt I've lived enough life for 3 people at this point. For a long time I've felt uncomfortable with so many things mentioned.  I have almost died a few times from past illnesses and Dr's incompetence.  My father jokes and says I was born in the wrong time period.  There's so much to tell....I rarely comment on anything,  ever. I can't stand social media or computers or cellphones.  I am married to my husband who is an empath too. May God bless you all and thanks because I feel less alone. Brain tumor removed after 8 hours of surgery about 3 weeks ago. I was yearning to just go home. I have 3 people on this earth who love me and I love them. I need to see they are cared for so I want to stay for them. I feel validated and I thank all of you who commented. Thank you

@nbeezhao

I'm so eager to leave this human experience behind.  Like graduating from kindergarten.

@Door1

I love this channel. This is the best channel about spiritual topics on the internet. No crazy religious dogma, just pure spirituality. I love it. Thank you for sharing it with us.

@debk6161

Yes, like many of my Homies, I am tired, too. Earth weary. My NDE this time was over 45 years ago. I’ve learned the deeper meaning of so many very tough experiences. I feel I am learning my final lesson now, perhaps the most difficult of all. To love myself. ❤

@60nygal

Yes utter alienation most of my life ...more so now ...animals are my family

@kkastqs1712

Love, kindness and peace to all souls!

@waterfire4fun

I am ready...no NDE for me but plenty of OBEs and experiencing unity with other spirits. My rebirth is  welcome 🙏

@bodhisattvamukherjee4424

I find peace in my inner self, I find arguments linear and harmonic, I feel immense happiness holding a tree or a dog or a spider..the level of happiness doesn't change .. I can easily forgive any wrongs done towards me but I don't allow the repetition by distancing ( not totally alienating) myself quietly.. but I feel there's so much to do just because it needs to be done for the betterment of the present and future generations...and the thing that I absolutely do not like is praise or commotion..quietness has its own treasures which speaks to you subtly..I find that rewarding 

But having said this, I also like the taste of a burger which gives the combination of different textures coming into harmony of a homologous symphony, I like to smell the quiet cool air on a mountain and the feeling of it touching my skin softly..I like to hear the laughter of my friends on a weekend meet..I  love music which soothes down the inner core..I am bound to repetitive earthly happiness and I feel I am yet to receive the ultimate blessing of the truth..the true energy of my soul occupying the space time continuum 😊

@lynnhall8720

I once awoke from a dream, saying these words aloud:
The dream is the reality,
Reality's the dream.
All is as it should be,
Nothing's as it seems.
                                        It was my voice, but it didn't feel like I was the one speaking it. Forgive me if I have commented this on this channel before; I lose track.

Another time, during a deep meditation, I returned to source. It was very peaceful and comfortable, no bright light, but more like we see in images of space. But then I became aware that I was alone and I started to miss my family and friends; but no sooner had the thought formed in my mind, than everyone was there. That is when I understood the connection, that energy is infinite and we are One.

@BarbaraKelley347

Awesome! Apparently this is my last incarnation on earth!! Hallelujah!!

@beatricebonini3871

Continued as a say 9 yr. Old after school id sit next to a adult at woolworths counter order hamburger friec& coke and ask them questions about their lives and life in general. I wanted to see the common, soul thread that exists in us all. From early on i knew god, the universe the unknowable was in my heart not in buildings and adults knew more than i did what is the secret to living in peace. They never brushed me off but talked with me kindly. That woolworths counter was my therapy and hope. They served the best burgers and fries. ❤ Enjoy the day....

@aaronhunter7322

I was going to ignore this notification until spirit told me I was meant to hear it..I see now why having heard spirit continually tell me this is my last dance,having lived a million lives and when i asked if I could come back I was told it is my choice. Having met death so many times in this lifetime I have already made my peace with it,still the spirits help me heal from a lifetime of injuries and traumatic near death events so I may enjoy my last dance to the best of my ability...i have no words to describe the gratitude I feel for all the divine help and blessings I have recieved..massive love and respect to all ✌️💖🎶

@ELAINEJOHNSON-qd4xt

I am ready to return home 😊

@TragedyAnne

I can’t wait to go home 🩷

@cmauj7688

Thank you for sharing this ❤ I want to go home so badly ❤

@LadyDiana1956

I am really ready to go home 🏠. This life has been too much for me.

@NevilleGoddardFiles

Who else feels like they’ve been through this entire cycle of reincarnation and are just ready to go HOME? 🔮 It's like we’re all living in a dream and awakening at the same time.